No Exit

Oasis what are you doing on my pandora you are never allowed to be in my ears ever.

All for you by Sister Hazel is right up my alley right now

I am singing it to the polysaccarides I am studying so that they are nice to me on Tuesday’s exam.

MICHIGAN LEAGUE

IS THERE A REASON WHY YOU HAVE THE BASS TURNED UP SO HIGH
I AM TRYING TO STUDY
I WAS UNAWARE THAT THIS WAS RICK’S 

Sometimes I forget that not everybody has a tumblr and that opening your tumblr in public can cause consternation because not everyone knows that scrolling through your dash and seeing porn is a normal thing

Y’know

I also miss Orgo what is this nonsense

Wait I love living here. I made dinner for 30 people today sort of all by myself and they didn’t hate it. It was terrifying though. The person who was supposed to help me cook didn’t show up and I was all like “uhuhugughuhnuh what do I doooo” but some nice people helped me find things and gave me tips on how to cook more efficiently and it was a success. The chicken was damn good.

I have also spent a ton of energy on work. Not a ton of time, that I could be getting paid for, but energy. For example, yesterday I spend an entire 12 hours on the phone in and out of the hospital trying to get a stupid blood draw (blood sample, 4 measly mL) because oh I don’t know, the form got lost and this person forgot to call it in and then the phlebotomist was like oh I can’t draw blood while the patient is getting a transfusion and then I was like okay I’ll come back later and then I called while she was getting another transfusion and I talked to my boss and she was like fuck it, we can miss this one. So I got all pretty and ready for my cinco de mayo dinner party and then RIGHT WHEN I’M WALKING OUT THE DOOR I get the stupid mfucking page saying that the blood is ready and at 6C reception. Then I had to run to the hospital and process it while Ryan waited in my room watching Battlestar Galactica.

AND THIS MORNING I GOT UP AT 8 to put in another order for blood so that it would go more smoothly and there were a trillion problems again because the phlebotomist was a no-show and again, I was like well since we didn’t miss last night I guess we can say fuck it to this one, but again at the last minute right when I’m walking out to eat breakfast THE STUPID PAGER goes off and I have to run to the hospital again and process things. All of this angst for 4 work hours between the two days. Anyway, what am I even complaining about, this stuff is cool.

Right but I don’t want to study for biochem right now because even though biochem is awesome I’m kind of not in the mood for studying ever because I am drained. Oh right I met Ryan’s mom today. She is AWESOME and super nice and very much like my mother which means that she approves I approve and everyone is happy. I think I will drag Ryan to the river tomorrow if it is nice or something.

I want to start writing in here again like I used to because it feels good to write. Sadly, I am writing right now to avoid biochem. What a pity. But I am feeling very grown-up today and proud of myself so I should be able to sleep tight. All of the ickies I was feeling earlier this year have gotten much better or gone away. Some of it is the weather but I think that making an effort to try and find the root of the ickies, talking to someone about it, and generally trying new things/finding new interests has helped a lot. I don’t know though, but my insides are smiling and the bricks are off of my chest so I LIKE THAT.

OKAY BIOCHEM I WILL PAY ATTENTION TO YOU NOW

The other day someone was blasting say anything’s “woe” in our kitchen and all of my insecurities about my secret embarrassing music tastes went away because I actually love angsting out to say anything. And I guess that made me feel comfortable.
Also there are a zillion camping/cottage retreats going on and I am excited to do that too.
In the meantime though, time to eat cheese while learning about lipids.